Thursday, September 8, 2011

A Blue Fin

        What an exciting adventure we are about to begin!!  The boys tried out last night for the Blue Fin swim team through our local recreation department.  All three boys were so excited and cannot wait to go back tonight for more practice.  I have to smile as I think about how life has changed for my two sons from across the great pond.  Just a few short months ago a whole different daily routine existed for these precious kids.  God truly is in control and moves so magnificently through our lives with His plans.  I shudder to think of the life that was ahead for my boys.  A life without parents, a brother, two sisters, grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, and wonderful friends. I write those words tears just well up in my eyes.  I cannot thank God enough for the gift of love that he has given me through this adoption.  I have been able to personally witness the hand of God work so beautifully in my own life.  I know that without the struggles of every up and down of the past year that I would not be the same woman that sits and writes today.  This woman has been tried, saddened, disappointed, amazed, overwhelmed, angered, brought to her knees, but truly blessed.
    The boys are growing each day.  Over the last 5 months they both have grown almost 3 inches.  I can tell that slowly they are letting go of past fears and disappointments.  I can see trust building and relationships strengthening.  I cannot share this information without feeling joyful I know that GOD planned this before they were born.  I still stand amazed at His magnificence.  He can take ordinary people with ordinary lives and use them for His glory.  As I walk through this journey, I can only hope that I will please him through my actions, words and thoughts. 
    So for now, the house of Kilgore is very busy.  We are looking forward to our final trip to Latvia next month.  I think the boys are tired of the travel as much as the adults.  I think they just want to look to the future and give themselves to their new lives.  God has a plan for such a future for these precious kids and I know a mom and dad who will be standing with pride as they step into the plan.